Long day. Worked till three then hit the road for other house.
Finally got here a bit past 8. Road repair put me a freaking hour behind schedule. My family of balloonheads did not even think of getting some food and having it waiting. Like the good local pizza I always want when I'm here. Fortunately they had leftovers. They remembered the booze, of course...which I don't do any more. Also my son in law has such bad BO today it stays in the room after he leaves...not sure whatinhell is up with that since it has never happened before. Fortunately they are all cool with me having early bedtime so that's what I did. Bed with phone reading now; start over fresh in the morning.
Friday, July 7, 2017
Thursday, July 6, 2017
Day 412
Survived the day. Was a good boss. Did all the home stuff. Too tired to knit but am working my way through the archives of a new blog so that was okay.
Tomorrow I'm knocking off work early so I can drive down to the other house and fetch Spouse and Girl-beagle back on Sunday. With work on Monday of course. Probably wouldn't have contemplated a whirlwind trip like that back in the overdrinking days.
Wednesday, July 5, 2017
Day 411
Another not-great day.
Morning was fine and I did indeed take myself to lunch but when I got back there was a second round of family drama and a bunch of work hell.
Went home by way of the ice cream shop. Waffle cone for dinner never hurt anyone, right? Right.
I am heartily sick of many things right now but bed and sleep will help - they always do.
Morning was fine and I did indeed take myself to lunch but when I got back there was a second round of family drama and a bunch of work hell.
Went home by way of the ice cream shop. Waffle cone for dinner never hurt anyone, right? Right.
I am heartily sick of many things right now but bed and sleep will help - they always do.
Tuesday, July 4, 2017
Day 410
That's a really good number and I'm happy it keeps creeping up day by day.
Happy I got a lot of knitting done too. If I stick at my two current projects I'll have a couple nice things but with fine yarn and small gauge it's gonna take five-ever. (That's an expression I swiped from Youngest.)
But for choosing not to do any sort of celebrating this day still had -way- too much family drama. Shower-go-to-bed-at-nine levels of family drama.
But hey, it makes work look good so that's something. Plus I won $10 on a one-dollar scratch-off lottery card* so that's something too.
I'm thinking it's about time to take myself for lunch again...maybe tomorrow.
*I know lotteries are considered by many to be a voluntary stupidity tax but I grew up ina state which didn't allow -any- form of gambling till I was almost done with college so I still find lottery-ticket _vending_machines_ a novelty. I never waste more than $2 at a time and always play the one with the highest odds of winning (50% if you count free plays.)
Happy I got a lot of knitting done too. If I stick at my two current projects I'll have a couple nice things but with fine yarn and small gauge it's gonna take five-ever. (That's an expression I swiped from Youngest.)
But for choosing not to do any sort of celebrating this day still had -way- too much family drama. Shower-go-to-bed-at-nine levels of family drama.
But hey, it makes work look good so that's something. Plus I won $10 on a one-dollar scratch-off lottery card* so that's something too.
I'm thinking it's about time to take myself for lunch again...maybe tomorrow.
*I know lotteries are considered by many to be a voluntary stupidity tax but I grew up ina state which didn't allow -any- form of gambling till I was almost done with college so I still find lottery-ticket _vending_machines_ a novelty. I never waste more than $2 at a time and always play the one with the highest odds of winning (50% if you count free plays.)
Monday, July 3, 2017
Day 409
Really down all day. Not sure why.
Did minimum necessary work and had cereal for dinner. Felt a bit better as the evening progressed. Maybe I'll be back to baseline tomorrow.
Sober depressed is still better than drinking depressed. "Down" sure but none of that deep self-loathing. That's something.
Did minimum necessary work and had cereal for dinner. Felt a bit better as the evening progressed. Maybe I'll be back to baseline tomorrow.
Sober depressed is still better than drinking depressed. "Down" sure but none of that deep self-loathing. That's something.
Sunday, July 2, 2017
Day 408
Quiet day.
Did the shopping and a lot of knitting. When I got the Big Cranky in the afternoon I had a little ice cream and a nap. Woke up all better; fancy that. Made lasagna for dinner and am happy to have the leftovers.
Sometimes boring is good.
Did the shopping and a lot of knitting. When I got the Big Cranky in the afternoon I had a little ice cream and a nap. Woke up all better; fancy that. Made lasagna for dinner and am happy to have the leftovers.
Sometimes boring is good.
Saturday, July 1, 2017
Day 407
Better day. Did everything I wanted to do: wash bedding, ABL haircut, stop by office and finish up work ... and finally have that damned ice cream cone. Sat in the one empty booth all by myself to eat it too, which may well have ticked off the two women behind me getting iced coffee who got stuck with the talk table but too bad.
MiL was annoying with her attempts to be manipulative today but I didn't let it get to me. Easier not to do that when not all emotionally akimbo from overdrinking the night before.
I was just sitting here reflecting on one of the many totally unexpected benefits of sobriety: clean sheets. In my drinking days I never had my act together enough to get the bed stripped and remade in a timely fashion and when falling into it all drunk I never cared anyway. Even with all the night sweats. Now though it seems just a logical bit of self-kindness. I'm not up to every week yet, which is what that book _Unfuck Your Habitat_ recommends but it's still "way more often." I can't remember the last time I changed the sheets twice in the same month. Undergrad, maybe.
In any case that nice fresh bed will be waiting for me in a bit and I just had a nice bath to go with it. If I had known hust how _much_ better life would be without booze maybe I would have started sooner. Still...better now than never and it gives a -lot- of time back so that's all good.
MiL was annoying with her attempts to be manipulative today but I didn't let it get to me. Easier not to do that when not all emotionally akimbo from overdrinking the night before.
I was just sitting here reflecting on one of the many totally unexpected benefits of sobriety: clean sheets. In my drinking days I never had my act together enough to get the bed stripped and remade in a timely fashion and when falling into it all drunk I never cared anyway. Even with all the night sweats. Now though it seems just a logical bit of self-kindness. I'm not up to every week yet, which is what that book _Unfuck Your Habitat_ recommends but it's still "way more often." I can't remember the last time I changed the sheets twice in the same month. Undergrad, maybe.
In any case that nice fresh bed will be waiting for me in a bit and I just had a nice bath to go with it. If I had known hust how _much_ better life would be without booze maybe I would have started sooner. Still...better now than never and it gives a -lot- of time back so that's all good.
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