Such an up and down day.
Started off okay enough but then I had bad work news followed by minor family drama. So I took a nice long walk at lunch and that helped as did my audiobook: a new-to-me Carl Hiaasen.
Got home and there was family drama from the Away Team and then family drama at home because Middle, after avoiding two separate deer, couldn't brake/avoid a third deer which darted in front of him and now his nice new car is banged up and he was totally beside himself.
Called the insurance company and it's going to be covered and we'll get a rental for the duration of the repairs but of course that was One More Thing painted atop a background of feeling unappreciated and unacknowledged. If I weren't so tired I'd still feel that way now, I think.
I don't mention it much as there's not a lot of help to be had for it but I get SO freaking tired of being the damned Maypole around which everything else gets braided. I remember when I was sixteen I wrote in my journal "of course I -want- to be the princess who gets carried off into the sunset and a new life by the prince on a white charger but I'll end up being the one slogging back to the wrecked castle with the pack pony and the wizard because someone's got to rebuild the damned thing." I didn't realize then I was writing freaking _prophecy_.
But bed and a good night's sleep will help - it always does - and things might look better in the morning.
Wednesday, February 14, 2018
Tuesday, February 13, 2018
Day 633
A good day.
Managed to take a walk at lunchtime even after doing a site visit. Got way too hungry waiting on Youngest to be done setting up the Valentine’s Day carnations at school but knowing that was all it was helped me get through till I could eat and food, of course, fixed me right up. Grateful not to be turning all that hungry-angry into a reason to stop at the liquor store...and not to turn it into grabbing the first handful of food I could reach as soon as I got in, either.
Tomorrow is both Valentine’s Day -and- Ash Wednesday - that’s an interesting juxtaposition.
Managed to take a walk at lunchtime even after doing a site visit. Got way too hungry waiting on Youngest to be done setting up the Valentine’s Day carnations at school but knowing that was all it was helped me get through till I could eat and food, of course, fixed me right up. Grateful not to be turning all that hungry-angry into a reason to stop at the liquor store...and not to turn it into grabbing the first handful of food I could reach as soon as I got in, either.
Tomorrow is both Valentine’s Day -and- Ash Wednesday - that’s an interesting juxtaposition.
Monday, February 12, 2018
Day 632
A bed at 9:15 kind of night. It was a decent enough day: easy work, monthly lunch with colleagues, sent regrets for the 5-6pm meeting Wednesday night and even had a walk but somehow I was still just totally fed up by 8:30. But that’s what bed with the Kindle app is for.
Sunday, February 11, 2018
Day 631
For a pajama day it sure seemed busy. Laundry, changed sheets, cooked, replaced the garage light bulbs (-all- of them went out - so annoying) found and packaged some requested items for the other house, fielded ABL’s same irritating questions at least three separate times...it’s none of it very big by itself but stuff adds up.
Still, it’s never a totally bad day when one has a shower to change from one pair of pajamas to another...and in a few minutes I’ll be putting my clean self into clean sheets and going to bed early with a book. That’s always nice.
I hope I don’t have crazy dreams again tonight - last night was downright disturbing. Hey, get a load o’ that: me so used to quality sleep that I’m complaining about nightmares! I’ve come a long way, that’s for sure.
Saturday, February 10, 2018
Day 630
The numbers are slowly piling up. Feels good.
Today was rough in places: woke up seriously down. Between family stuff, the weather stuff and work stuff I slid right past blue into indigo and was working on purple...but it eventually eased up. A warmer day helped because I made myself get out in the fresh air. I didn’t walk much but it was something and every little bit helps. Tried to eat real food instead of junk, too - that never hurts.
After dinner I did the grocery shopping because Youngest needs the car tomorrow morning - this means I don’t have to leave the house at all if I don’t feel like it. Got a list of things to do in/around the house though so that’s fine.
Picked up my knitting for the first time in over a month but ket getting interrupted. Maybe tomorrow.
But now sleep. It always helps.
Today was rough in places: woke up seriously down. Between family stuff, the weather stuff and work stuff I slid right past blue into indigo and was working on purple...but it eventually eased up. A warmer day helped because I made myself get out in the fresh air. I didn’t walk much but it was something and every little bit helps. Tried to eat real food instead of junk, too - that never hurts.
After dinner I did the grocery shopping because Youngest needs the car tomorrow morning - this means I don’t have to leave the house at all if I don’t feel like it. Got a list of things to do in/around the house though so that’s fine.
Picked up my knitting for the first time in over a month but ket getting interrupted. Maybe tomorrow.
But now sleep. It always helps.
Friday, February 9, 2018
Day 629
One of those days.
Annoying, pure and simple, from start to finish. Weather, work, family: it all irritated. Granted, I was good and primed to be irritated what with being tired and cranky and all.
In any case I made it through the day, got a pizza for dinner and crashed hard on the couch. No energy for the computer or even the podcasts I follow and it took s good hour of doing nothing at all before I even could manage reading in the Kindle app. Don’t know how much is emotional and how much is physical but I’m just riding it out. Moved from couch to bed and figure I can start over tomorrow.
Annoying, pure and simple, from start to finish. Weather, work, family: it all irritated. Granted, I was good and primed to be irritated what with being tired and cranky and all.
In any case I made it through the day, got a pizza for dinner and crashed hard on the couch. No energy for the computer or even the podcasts I follow and it took s good hour of doing nothing at all before I even could manage reading in the Kindle app. Don’t know how much is emotional and how much is physical but I’m just riding it out. Moved from couch to bed and figure I can start over tomorrow.
Thursday, February 8, 2018
Day 628
Long tiring day.
There were many minor annoyances but I managed to turn the last and most irritating around into a benefit. When I got back to work after my Big Loop the parking lot was a complete disaster as some spaces were taken up with plowed snow and there had been enough snow to hide the marking so everyone had just sort of guessed where they should park and they were lousy guessers. No spots there and no spots in the other lot either so I had to park on the street. Well fine: the street has a two hour time limit and it was 1:30. There was no way I was going to go move my car and go -back- to the office so my day became officially over at 3:30.
Had a shower bath first thing and that helped. So did carry-out for dinner and a nice bowl of ice cream. Needed all of that because there was some family drama to top off the day.
Been thinking about May not just because it will be full-on spring by then but also because my two-year Soberversary is May 21. Already thinking about fancy cake again - I never did get it last time I-forget-why-not but maybe this time I will.
Sleep now though.
There were many minor annoyances but I managed to turn the last and most irritating around into a benefit. When I got back to work after my Big Loop the parking lot was a complete disaster as some spaces were taken up with plowed snow and there had been enough snow to hide the marking so everyone had just sort of guessed where they should park and they were lousy guessers. No spots there and no spots in the other lot either so I had to park on the street. Well fine: the street has a two hour time limit and it was 1:30. There was no way I was going to go move my car and go -back- to the office so my day became officially over at 3:30.
Had a shower bath first thing and that helped. So did carry-out for dinner and a nice bowl of ice cream. Needed all of that because there was some family drama to top off the day.
Been thinking about May not just because it will be full-on spring by then but also because my two-year Soberversary is May 21. Already thinking about fancy cake again - I never did get it last time I-forget-why-not but maybe this time I will.
Sleep now though.
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