Day 761: 2 Years 1 Month

A good day. Finally going to get the staircase fixed up.

Got printer ink and a good lunch and tomorrow should be equally productive. Gotta admit that I don’t mind ABL visiting his mother one bit. Didn’t realize till he was gone what a chunk of my mental real estate he uses.

Have so much lined up for this weekend. And Youngest graduates on Sunday. So glad I will be fully present for all of it.

Day 760

The meeting went far better than I feared. Of course it would be at least a little better since nothing is ever as bad as we make it out to be in our heads beforehand but this was downright good. Stunning.

Dinner with kids was good too.

Car still not ready and probably won’t be for another week but I have a rental car so it’s okay. Annoying but okay.

And now to bed. I realized late this afternoon that tomorrow is my two-year-one-month milestone.

Day 759

Easy work day and my new book-club book arrived but I have a really unpleasant noon meeting tomorrow and it’s tinted the whole evening. It’s a disciplinary meeting and there are no good answers or outcomes I can see but plenty of little bits contributing to a whole and all just so sad.

So I’ve gone to bed early. Was reading but fatigue rushed in like a fast ride so I thought I’d better check in before I fell asleep.

Planning dinner out as a treat for just living through tomorrow.

Day 758

Today it all started catching up to me and I was both tired and really sad.

But I have a good new book and have been lying down reading it all evening and night so that’s fine. It’s become orders of magnitude easier to be kind and caring to myself now than when I was drinking.

May fall asleep book in hand before 10 and that’s fine too.

Day 757

Eldest and SiL are safely back at the other house again. I’m glad of it.

It was stressful. Not for me but for her and also for Spouse, who had some custodial care of the girl-beagle, their new puppy and Eldest’s pair of guinea pigs.

Well okay it was plenty stressful for me being caught in the middle of everything. Ate way too many carbs again today and also took a very unusual afternoon nap. But I didn’t drink or even want to drink so I still win.

Wasn’t a very restful weekend though. Sigh.

Day 756

Accomplished day. Finally finished clearing out basement and master bedroom closet. Was harder that I thought it would be and took me longer than I thought it would but I am not too out of shape to do it and that was pleasing.

My new pattern book came yesterday and my new yarn came today so I started playing with that. Felt nice to just sit with my knitting.

Did the bulky grocery shopping and planned menus so I can do the rest of the shopping tomorrow.

And now sleep.

Day 755

Work drama and Home drama both oh joy.

Eldest and SiL drive up so they could see his family. They are staying till Sunday afternoon but probably going to be away from the house much of the time.

Middle is out with friends and I wore myself out cleaning and trying to rearrange stuff.

Ate too many carbs but didn’t drink or even want to drink so I still win.