Not a great day.
Had to shovel snow to be able to get car out of the driveway to start my trip. Got here to the other house by noon and it’s been drama drama drama ever since. Eldest is...well, I guess “volatile” is a nice catch-all word to cover it.
Maybe tomorrow will be better. I absolutely did -not- want to drink so that was at least one good thing.
Saturday, April 7, 2018
Friday, April 6, 2018
Day 685
Officially on vacation. Tomorrow morning I will wake up and hit the road to the other house - car is already packed. I hope it’s a good trip.
No wise thoughts but once again grateful and glad to be getting good restful sleep and waking up -not- hung over. It’s just -so- much easier this way.
No wise thoughts but once again grateful and glad to be getting good restful sleep and waking up -not- hung over. It’s just -so- much easier this way.
Thursday, April 5, 2018
Day 684
The power came back at 2am which of course woke me up but I got back to sleep quickly so that was okay.
I was -really-good- at work today de-escalating a potentially ugly interaction so that was cool. Practically strutted to the cafeteria afterwards.
Spent all afternoon being therapist for Eldest by text and telephone so I was kinda glad Middle and Youngest had self-sufficient plans for the evening. I can only spread myself so thin, y’know?
Did absolutely _nothing_ this evening and was glad to do it. Now bed. Tomorrow will be a big churn day at work to get everything done before I leave for vacation.
I’m just so glad I quit drinking: there’s just no way I could have stayed reasonably calm while spinning all these plates if I were still drinking.
Wednesday, April 4, 2018
Day 683
Don’t know whether it was the giant heavy-carbs dinner or remembering to bundle up more but I slept considerably better last night. Good thing, too, as our power is out so I expect to sleep rather poorly.
Otherwise the day was just a day - still doing alot at work, still with the on-again-off-again sore throat and waves of fatigue, still trying hard not to get all full of resentment.
And now no power...but at least it was after dinner so we have been able to keep the fridge door entirely shut.
Time to attempt sleeping through the rest of the blackout.?
Otherwise the day was just a day - still doing alot at work, still with the on-again-off-again sore throat and waves of fatigue, still trying hard not to get all full of resentment.
And now no power...but at least it was after dinner so we have been able to keep the fridge door entirely shut.
Time to attempt sleeping through the rest of the blackout.?
Tuesday, April 3, 2018
Day 682
Okay day, all things considered.
Slept very badly - kept waking up, sometimes out of bad dreams, and was so cold I thought we might have furnace problems again. Nope, just me. So I started off the day on a bad note and it never got much better what with a site visit and driving back through -snow-. It changed to rain by evening but was still disheartening.
Ate a big lunch then we had breakfast-for-dinner and I had too many waffles and was bloated all evening but it was a good and cozy kind of bloated. Now I’m having an early bedtime hoping to feel more like myself tomorrow.
At least there wasn’t any new family drama. Bonus.
Slept very badly - kept waking up, sometimes out of bad dreams, and was so cold I thought we might have furnace problems again. Nope, just me. So I started off the day on a bad note and it never got much better what with a site visit and driving back through -snow-. It changed to rain by evening but was still disheartening.
Ate a big lunch then we had breakfast-for-dinner and I had too many waffles and was bloated all evening but it was a good and cozy kind of bloated. Now I’m having an early bedtime hoping to feel more like myself tomorrow.
At least there wasn’t any new family drama. Bonus.
Monday, April 2, 2018
Day 681
Good Monday at work; I hope it is a trend for the week.
On the other hand I’ve got family worries and even though things are going well there’s this whole alternating anger and sadness thing I can’t seem to shake. Mostly at night. But it will sort itself out eventually I’m sure.
Early to bed for me.
On the other hand I’ve got family worries and even though things are going well there’s this whole alternating anger and sadness thing I can’t seem to shake. Mostly at night. But it will sort itself out eventually I’m sure.
Early to bed for me.
Sunday, April 1, 2018
Day 680
Weird day again.
Had another drinking dream - don’t know what’s up with that. Woke up right afterward at 2-Something in the morning and after a bathroom break I ended up eating in the middle of the night which I haven’t done in forever. Went back to bed and of course got heartburn before morning which is part of why I don’t eat at night.
Shopping went well and the new spinach recipe I tried was great and I had a fine time listening to my audiobook while I finished - all the way finished - my sweater. Had a decent photo shoot with my iphone’s timer setting, posted everything to Ravelry and then the kids and I had Chinese food for dinner...but then I got a huge case of angry/grumpy and I can’t even figure out why. Actually I was off and on cranky all day for no reason at all. Well, none I can figure out, anyhow.
Probably it’s not wanting to go back to work - Youngest has tomorrow off and I caught myself gently mocking her for it (“lucky!”) which is very unlike me. I have a -lot- of work all week before my vacation starts and a lot of stuff to do to make it do that I -can- go down to the other house and frankly given all the chaos churning down there it doesn’t sound like it’s going to be very restful or possibly even very vacation-like.
But for now it’s bedtime and everything might look totally different in the morning.
Had another drinking dream - don’t know what’s up with that. Woke up right afterward at 2-Something in the morning and after a bathroom break I ended up eating in the middle of the night which I haven’t done in forever. Went back to bed and of course got heartburn before morning which is part of why I don’t eat at night.
Shopping went well and the new spinach recipe I tried was great and I had a fine time listening to my audiobook while I finished - all the way finished - my sweater. Had a decent photo shoot with my iphone’s timer setting, posted everything to Ravelry and then the kids and I had Chinese food for dinner...but then I got a huge case of angry/grumpy and I can’t even figure out why. Actually I was off and on cranky all day for no reason at all. Well, none I can figure out, anyhow.
Probably it’s not wanting to go back to work - Youngest has tomorrow off and I caught myself gently mocking her for it (“lucky!”) which is very unlike me. I have a -lot- of work all week before my vacation starts and a lot of stuff to do to make it do that I -can- go down to the other house and frankly given all the chaos churning down there it doesn’t sound like it’s going to be very restful or possibly even very vacation-like.
But for now it’s bedtime and everything might look totally different in the morning.
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