Day 748

Another hard day.

Took car to collision center. Really dislike the rental car. As much or more than the last one and largely for same reason: bright -bright- blue.

Got home and discovered a leak in the basement. Got plastic tubs under the drips and have a plumber to call but really this has been a week!

However it was also opening night for Youngest’s musical which was charming and really well done. So there was that. And I can sleep in tomorrow which is also something.

Day 747

And I thought yesterday was bad.

Today in my first of 3 meetings I learned that my employer had to refinance its debt and the local bank with whom they banked forever was unwilling to do the re-fi. Along with some other ugly portends.

Good news is that I got the car stuff worked out.

Bad news: I had to have an extended conversation with MiL

I need to start trying to sleep but I’ve been too anxious. Sigh.

Day 746

Another not great day. Youngest had fender bender in school parking lot. Nobody hurt but the car needs enough work that the only place I’m driving it is to the collision center.

But we are all getting through it.

Tomorrow full of meetings.

I let Middle, who worked a double weed-whacking shift today (it rained yesterday) have first bath which means we are out of hot water. I have good intentions to stay awake for a bath tonight not a shower in the morning but it is ten and I’m lying down. Hell’s main highway is probably getting a new brick.

Day 745

Some days suck a lot and this was one of them.

It was mostly work but some home stuff too and I felt so down I did the essential stuff then went to bed at 6:15. Pajamas, covers, the whole bit. After a one-hour nap I felt slightly less awful and got some odds and ends around the house done and now I’m back in bed for real and hoping tomorrow is a better day.

I’m glad I’m not a drinker any more: crawling into a bottle at 6:15 would lead to a way worse morning.

Day 744 (2 Years, 2 weeks):

What a day.

Had a really awful noon meeting today: it became painfully obvious that a high ranking administrator wanted to fire a person but wanted to use the committee as the mechanism. It was ham-fisted and deeply disturbing even though it doesn’t affect me directly. Very sad, very anger-making...and of course the family were all heavily into their own lives which included drama from the other house. 

I haven’t wanted to run away from home this badly in a long time. Not gonna do it, obviously, but still. 

Guess they can’t all be gems. 

Day 743 (2 years, 1 week, 6 days)

I stayed in and got the things done I wanted to do but there was a background of family drama st the other house which cast a bit of shadow over the day.

Today’s biggest activity was the hard thing: plugged up holes in the basement drywall adjacent to the radiator and replaced cover/end caps. I -really- dreaded that but now it’s over. After fixing the outside holes where facing brick joined the wall last weekend.I only had the one snake on Monday (bringing the total to three) so I figured that after a whole week of no new visitors it was safe to conclude nothing was still lurking in the walls. I had been putting it off due to completely irrational and illogical - though no less real - fear that a snake would be just on the other side and slither out at me. But I sucked it up and did it.

Rewarded myself with the Memphis Junior League Onion Dip I made but I wasn’t all that terribly impressed with it. And I absolutely disliked the Irish Soda Bread I made from a mix for breakfast but they can’t all be winners, right?

Now I’m contemplating an early bedtime.

Day 742 (2 Years, 1 week, 5 days.)

There is no Day 741 entry because the internet went out last night. Back now.

Yesterday was really hard. After a week of much cleaning/rearranging and snake patrol (at midnight we hit 5 (!) snake-free days) Eldest needed - yea demanded - a whole lot of verbal emotional support and doing so was intense and draining. Of course I would do it again gladly in a heartbeat but it isn’t without cost. I was, however, very specifically grateful to be a couple years sober so I was able to DO the important hard thing. 

Today I will be relaxing as much as possible.

MUCH LATER:

Youngest’s class trip got in far earlier than expected — that was nice. I also did the shopping today which will be very nice when I don’t have to leave the house tomorrow at all.

Got some stuff done and that was good. Get to sleep in as late as I wish too. Also good.