Today was the first day in a while that I didn't -wake-up- tired and achy so that's progress. However it was pretty stressful otherwise. Mostly time pressure - I just don't do well with that. Also some family stuff about which I have to keep saying "not my circus; not my monkeys." Having the Captain Awkward Archives as my primary reading material this week is helpful on that front.
One thing that almost thirteen months of sobriety has started to help me see is that I'm an emotionally strong person. Back when I was in school a colleague said "you're a rock, man" and I sort of brushed it off - especially because "If I'm so stable how come I drink so much?" These days though I'm starting to see his point and that feels good. It's not that I don't get the Big Sads or the Red Rages but that in this past year I've learned how to have emotions like that and neither let them consume me or cause me to consume booze. That feels awfully good when I stop to think about it.
It's the best, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteI love knowing I can be sad, mad, lonely, tired, stressed, but not drink.
It feels so good not to have to deal with the emotions as well as the after drinking effects!
xo
Wendy
:)
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