Wednesday, June 15, 2016


I thought the sadness and moodiness would never end tonight...but they eventually did. Lots of people - heck, everyone I've read I think - use the word "raw" to describe newly sober and "newly" seems to be at least the first three months if not the whole first year. I get that. Sad for no reason at all, surprisingly angry over little stuff - that kind of thing.

Uncomfortable to be sure and I would have loved an excuse to go to bed at 7:30 (I did "nap" on the couch from 7:45 to 8:30) but it still beats some of the ugly alcohol-fueled emotional scenes of nights past. And even though I felt pretty pissy pretty much all night I know that when I do finally get to sleep it will be decent sleep and that I will feel good in the morning. Sober emotions may be like someone sand papering one's soul but they do - no matter how much it seems otherwise in the short term - still beat drunk emotions.

Twenty-six. That's pretty cool.


  1. Congrats on day 26! Sober sleep is the best and waking up without a hangover never gets old! A x

  2. Great job sitting with those uncomfortable emotions. It really stinks when we can't release them easily.