Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Day 82

First day I feel more or less decent and now the muse has vanished. Life is like that.

I think a big part of it is that I have to give an annual evaluation to a difficult person at work in the upcoming days so my whole verbal-language skill set is pointed there in my head. Diplomacy and business-speak don't come easily to me and there's s huge fear-of-the-Unknown (the individual's response) component. I know I always-always-always make things out in my head ahead of time to be scarier/more intimidating/way worse than they ever turn out to be in real life...but knowing I do that doesn't equal not doing it.

I am, however, glad to be having the mental fussing from a sober state rather than from the spike-y jaggedy emotional and physical state of regular heavy drinking.


  1. I had to do this many, many years ago.
    It was very hard. I was young, and they were older.
    I am glad you are feeling better.

  2. I am glad you are feeling better. Day 82 is awesome! Well done. A x